I am Chelsea Lynn Davis! A BLACK, BIG, WOMAN and I’m in a relationship with a woman. Society labels us as lesbians, however the gay community adds more labels and stereotypes that don't represent everyone in the community.
When people in the LGBT community know that you are gay, they often ask “What are you, the dyke, the lip stick dyke, or transgender?” I was like its labels to this shit? I'm just gay but when the boyish girl told me what she wants to do with me, my heart dropped and said, "Oh no".
I don't like labels, but I am a lesbian. This don't mean I hate men, or mean I want to be a man, or want to be dominant in the relationship. People assume being gay means I'm chasing straight women and converting them. However, I’m just comfortable with who I love.
I always was a tomboy, and I'm ok with that. However, I love flowers, manicures and pedicures and other feminine things.
My first crush was at the age of 8, and every time we played house I would role-play as the boy. I never wanted to be a boy, I just knew I loved the same sex. I knew I was gay, but I didn't feel comfortable enough to come out and live in my truth.
Sometimes I see gay people in the neighborhood being treated like a disease, instead of being a human being that is free to love who they love. I guess I cared too much about what others thought of me. I feared rejection, but another part of me just wanted to be happy.
I never forgot, my 12th grade year on Valentine's day, I gave a valentine’s card to this young lady that I had a crush on, and when she received the card, she said shockingly "you gay?". I was flustered and was like hell no, I gave it as a joke. I felt so embarrassed not because of the rejection but I wasn't ready to say it.
When I went to college, this is when I knew that staying in the darkness wasn’t who I was, and it only made me unhappy.